so i've come to the end of my roller coaster ride
and i am spent.
my legs are still pretty much wobbling and the world around me spinning
but i am unfortunately grounded.

d was talking to _ last night and she said
"theres no use crying over something that you cannot change"

i often question the certainty of the end
and ask myself if there really isnt anything that i could have done different or anything else i can do to avoid the end
but as much as the heart is screaming otherwise
my heard is well aware of how inevitable the end is

i more than free fell
i just got flung forcibly to the ground.